Sunday, 31 January 2010

Membuang Masa Yang Terluang...haha

Saya bosan, saya rindu bestfren saya kat Brunei yang sombong tak reply message. Hari ni habis-habisan dia bergembira tanpa saya. (-_-"). Takpe la, untuk mengisi masa saya jawab la quiz/soalan/papejela ni yang ditag oleh someone.

1. Bekas kekasih saya adalah :
bekas air ke bekas nasik? ke bekas pensil.. kekasih, awak ada bawak bekas ke pergi kerja? tak pasan la..

2. Saya sedang mendengar :
menatap matamu - aril (cmt hp sejak dlu~minat sgt dengan lagu ni)

3. Mungkin saya patut :
pergi tgk tv ke memasak ke daripada menghadap benda alah ni.

4. Saya suka :
nyanyi kuat2 penuh perasaan dlm kereta (siap buat gaya lagi).

5. Sahabat-sahabat baik saya :
selalu kutuk saya depan2 (-_-"). nama pun sahabat, takkan nak cakap belakang2 lak kan?

6. Saya tak paham :
bahasa Uganda.

7. Saya kehilangan :
masa untuk bergembira dengan kawan-kawan sebab terlalu kuat bekerja. huhu.. tapi siyesly aku rindu korang tau. huhu :(

8. Ramai yang berkata :
saya clumsy. padahal saya cool B-) hahaha.. tipu tipu! :P

9. Makna nama saya :
erm...tak cari lagi

10. Cinta itu adalah :
apabila si lelaki sanggup duduk sebelah si wanita yang selalu memandu secara berbahaya sedangkan tak ada sesiapa pun berani naik dengan wanita cantik tersebut. (saya bukan cakap pasal saya tau. haha :P)

11. Di suatu tempat, seseorang sedang :
sibuk layan games kat dalam bilik tanpa menghiraukan saya yang kesepian. sobsob~~

12. Saya akan cuba :
menahan rindu ini sehinggalah berjumpa dengannya pada suatu masa yang diizinkanNya.

13. Ayat SELAMANYA membawa maksud :
kekal abadi.

14. Telefon bimbit saya :
telah banyak membantu saya berkomunikasi dengan orang2 yang saya kenal dan saya sayang.

15. Bila saya terjaga dari tidur :
saya akan teraba2 cari henfon saya untuk mematikan alarm, pastu tido balik.

16. Saya paling meluat apabila :
berdepan dengan orang yang hanya pandai bercakap but prove nothing. annoying~

17. Pesta/Parti adalah :
membuang masa, kecuali kalau ianya adalah parti harijadi bestfren dan anak2 jiran saya. seronok! :

18. Haiwan yang paling comel yang saya pernah temui ialah :
Puss in the Boot dalam cerita Shrek.


19. Peringkat umur yang paling menyeronokkan bagi saya ialah :
sewaktu berumur 5 tahun di waktu arwah nenek masih hidup dan tinggal bersamanya

20. Hari ini :
sangat sibuk selepas pukul 2 petang kot menghadiri parti harijadi dan kenduri jiran2 tetangga

21. Malam ini saya akan :
tidur awal and bangun lambat sikit sebab esok tak perlu masuk ofis awal2 since nak pergi bank dan celcom ofis

22. Esok pula saya akan :
lunch sorang2 lagi huhu

23. Saya betul-betul inginkan :
hidup bahagia yang penuh gelak tawa dan majlis perkahwinan yang kecil tapi sangat bermakna hanya untuk saya dan orang-orang yang saya sayangi :)

24. Ketika anda lihat wajah anda di hadapan cermin pagi ini :
sembabnye muka..


25. Pusat membeli-belah atau arked permainan :
dua-dua pun berpotensi besar untuk mengurangkan not2 di dalam purse saya hahaha


26. Makanan Barat atau Jepun :
saya orang Melayu sejati yang perlu makan nasik.

27. Bilik yang terang atau gelap :
kalau nak tidur kena la gelap. sebab saya ada masalah silau yang tinggi. adeyy.

28. Makanan segera adalah :
tak elok untuk kesihatan tapi tiba-tiba jadi elok bila semalam abah tanya nak makan pizza tak :))


29. Ayat terakhir yang anda katakan pada seseorang :
"ye la mak, nanti jue turun"..(mak risau anak kesayangan dia tak turun2 lepas sarapan tadi hehe..sayang mak)


30. Siapa yang anda nak Tag?
malas nak tag sape2.



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Friday, 29 January 2010

JuE tOdaY

current mood: happy :)


updates:

1) family

*tonite da tdo umah mak...happy to be back here...oh miss my sweet room...:P)

*smbil tgk pacifier ngn mak,abah n oja(my fren next door)..gelak sakan tgk watak vin diesel(erm,i think my voice yg paling kuat kot hahaha)

2) career

*great :) the boss treating me very2 well recently that enthusiast me to luv my job more and work harder :)

*colleagues? the new PM is fun to be with, the engineer is nice, the executives are good. other than these.. erm.. do i have to care? :)

3) relationship

*dia kuar g minum ngn mber skolah dia...huhu..miss him walaupun baru beberapa minit je dia kuar...T_T

4) friends

*we hardly see each other, and i understand that everyone's bz with the job.but we still keep ourselves in touch no matter what :)

5) health

*erm..kureng sket..lenguh2 bdn.futsal mlm smlm kot huhu

6) financial

*no comment. haha. (bila nak gaji ni.. wuu~)

serba tak kena :(

my feeling bout u last nite...

please get well soon.

the moment i said i'm fine, i lied.
i so wanna call u like every 5 minutes,
just to ensure that u're fine.
but i dont want to disturb u much.

i reached PC magazine, try to focus on my reading-->failed.
i switched on the pc, thinking of searching sumthing-->boring.
i went to the kitchen, find sumthing to eat-->nothing good.
i reached my hp, type sumthing, and delete it-->he might sleep already.
i dialled his num, but cancel it-->chill, he'll be fine.


owh dear, what can i do to make things easier for u..

Thursday, 28 January 2010

Anonymous??

Hmm...


kebelakangan ni ada mesej2 dari Anonymous (i believe this is just the same person) yang appear dengan kata2 tak berapa nak baik kot.


Saya rasa macam tau dari siapa, tapi biar je la..


Terasa? I couldn't care less perhaps. Umur2 macam ni saya pernah melalui sesuatu yang lebih teruk dari ini. I've being working surrounded with those of opposite gender, i've been trained to be firm, strong and stringent. So hati dan perasaan saya tak serapuh wanita biasa, jika itu yang dia harapkan.


Hmm.. Macam mana nak explain ye, or should i really explain? Bosan sebenarnya dengan benda2 macam ni. And i'm no longer in the phase yang bergaduh2 berbalas kutukan dalam fb ke kat mana-mana ke... Its so teenagers to react that way. But when i suddenly sound completely heated, it means that the person/thing had totally hit my nerves.


Never meant to justify the wrongdoings i might have made, but true, hanya yang rapat dengan saya sahaja yang benar2 mengenali siapa sebenarnya saya. Again i would like to emphasize, this is exactly the way i am, there's nothing i can do to those who refused to dance in the same song, and even hate the song. And wait, should i really give a damn?


Being in a family that take LOVING EACH OTHER seriously, i dont know how to hate people. Having bad presumption and execute dreadful judgement to people is really not the manner i have been taught for 26 years. Evenmore when i don't even know the person, in what sense should the verdict being made?


These people seemed to flatly contradict with every single thing written in here. You know, when you keen to spend your time reading my thoughts, you actually care much of me. Do you realize that? Thanks anyway.


Living in hatred? Kesian, but what can i do?


*sigh*


Get a life sis, for God sake. Or create your own blog then you can always genuinely backfire instead of tembak bertubi2 behind the name of anonymous sebab takut sangat orang tau you siapa.. Eh, is anonymous also considered as a name? Or noname?? Well, whatever. Come on, bring it on. You're way better than this.

P.S: Hope this is the last post i'll be talking about this. Buang masa la layan.

Sunday, 17 January 2010

Luahan hati...

am in a very bad shape today. Totally wrecked. I'm having terrible mood swing and for the very first time, i don't even know what i want and what i have to do. I'm losing focus, my attempts on something better is a complete failure. I am devastating for God sake. Owh please not to be carried away. Its not supposed to be that bad afterall. Repent? Yes.. Maybe i shoud try repentant. I need a break. I've broke too many rules, please help me find a way.

Well2, she's exaggerating things again~
I am not exaggerating things!
Oh see, she's being complicated again~
I am not being complicated!!

God.. I feel like losing my mind now. Is it due to my passive lifestyle? I'm no longer feel the rush of adrenaline inside. I am too passive! I'm thinking of work out, they said working out would produce some adrenaline hormones that would make you happier and cheer you up. Maybe tomorrow i should drop by at Giant nearby to buy a good aerobic shoes and start getting sweat. A healthy body leads a healthy mind. Feeling a bit satisfied of myself already :)

Another thing is, re-shaping my mind at this moment is crucial. Take office time as a start. Jue sweetheart, don't let yourself be anxious by anyone...
I'm done, pretty relieved because i manage to let out all my frustration in a quite polite manner. Because initially i've drafted the post in much inappropriate languages which include cursing, vulgar words, etc. (Hehe.. I'm bad, i know :P) Then i changed my words, totally different than what i've thought at the first place because.. Erm.. I have no idea the exact reasons. Maybe my anger is slowly fading the more i let out all those negative emotion here :)

Sorry for wasting your precious time with all this craps, thanks for reading.